Suka

Suka, perasaanku terhadap Kau
Yang telah membuka hatiku
Tiada sentuhan, tiada wajah
Namun aku tetap suka

Suka, itulah Kata jiwaku
Lembut caramu menyentuh hatiku
Hanya suara menjadi peneman
Namun aku tetap gembira

Suka, diriku Pada dirimu
Walaupun jauh aku terima
Tapi sayang sudah berpunya
Tiada harapan bagiku sudah

Suka, masih aku terasa
Bila hati tetap merindu
Jiwaku sebak menahan perit
Kegagalan untuk merasa cinta

Why Love?

Dear Love,
Why does my heart feel so lonely?
Why do I cry before I go to sleep?
Why did you come only to leave so soon?
Why don't you stay awhile and be my company?

Dear Love,
Why is it always painful to be with you?
Why did you come only to hurt me more?
Why did I let you in only to be dissapointed?
Why did I get so stupid when it comes to you?

Dear Love,
Why did you hurt again when I am already hurt?
Why can't you see my broken shattered heart?
Why can't you feel the pain you have caused?
Why are you so blind to what I feel?

Dear Love,
Why did I get so vulnerable?
Why did I get hurt so much?
Why did I cry so much for you?
Why did I even know you?

The Mountain

serene is what i feel when i am with you,
peace and calm envelope me,
i feel your strength inside me,
pushing anxieties out of my soul,
forever you are a friend without a face,
wealthy without having to drop a sweat,
tidy without fancy furnitures and exquisite chandeliers,
yet...you can mesmerise every single soul that conquer you,
you are truly...the Mountain

Hear My Whisper

Hanni,
my world is empty now
everything seems muted
i miss yesterday so much
when i wore a smile on my face
can we go back to yesterday?
when happiness filled the air
and my spirit was sky high

Hanni,
the sky reminds me of you
every wind that blows
carried your name with it
i whispered softly in the wind
hear me say, under the ray
let the wind blow to you
carrying my whispers

Hanni,
can you feel the wind
will you hear my whispers
do you feel my pain
shall we break the silence
understand my plights
acknowledge the truths
i whispered 'I love you'

Mistake

I just realised that I have made a stupid mistake
A mistake that has changed everything about us
How I wished I could turn back the time to make amends
Day and night, I keep thinking about you
I wonder what went wrong and now I know
It was my entire fault, how I hate myself now
I feel so helpless, like a rose left to dry
I had carelessly made bad decisions
If only I could show you how much I care
One chance that I had, and I threw it away
I allowed jealousy to take control
I became a victim of my own action
I used to wonder how it’s going to be without you
I need not wonder anymore because now I know
You are not with me any longer
I have lost the person that makes my soul lively
Would it be different if I had not made the mistake I have made
I have tried but I failed, it’s almost impossible
To forget someone whose soul is present in me
The bond that we have created virtually is stronger that I ever thought
I will live with regret now for I have made a mistake at your expense
You have always been the one that I have ever love so dearly…

Dearest Diana

Dearest Diana,
I never knew if it was love or just a curiosity,
You never fail to linger in my mind
I have not touched nor have heard you,
But the emotions of longing for you exists
A lover without a face,
You took my breath away suffocating me without mercy
Our weaknesses and faults have broken the promises we have made
We thought we were strong, but we were wrong
I could never forgive myself,
For it is an act of disgrace
I am no match for this fight I am fighting for
If there is anyone to be blamed,
For all the sadness in the air
It will be me, I will hold myself to blame,
I have sinned you
I have forgotten what I was fighting for
Condemned me and I will comprehend,
For all the tears you have shed
You have an enigmatic nature,
But I always know u will remain mysterious
Unless I am patient
But it has gone with the wind
Like the leaves falling from the trees,
Blown away by the wind without a destination
I have been in love with the wind,
I can feel it but I can never have it
It seems so close but yet so far,
so strong but yet so soft
In my quest to search for myself,
I have come to the road less travelled
In my isolation I have reached to a conclusion
I’ll only know when our eyes meet,
And I will feel the beat of my heart
If I die before I am awake,
Please believe I loved and love you still
All I ask for is your heartfelt forbearance
for the mistakes I have made
Your clemency is something I shall not seek
for I am too humiliated of myself
If I have upset you in any way,
I shall not defend myself for I am only human
I will submit my humble self to your demand
and your wish will be my command
I will not search for more but only your soul,
your touch and your divine devotion
And in exchange for that,
I shall give you mine
If you were mine…

Dear Nina

dear nina,

it has been 5 years since you were gone,
i was left all alone to pick up the pieces,
i had my palm cut by the broken glasses many times,
it bled and i let it bleed,
i didn't nurse the bleeding palm,
i didn't see any reason for it since you were gone,
there's no one that care anymore,
why did you leave without goodbye,
does it make you smile to see me like this?
what have i done wrong?
did i let you down?
everywhere i go i think of you,
every girl that walks pass me seems to look like you,
so many things happened while you were gone,
it hurts very much Nina,
it really does,
we were the best of friends,
where are the promises that you have made?
i saw you last night, but you didn't even look at me,
it was a dream i have always had since you were gone,
i felt a knife piercing through my heart when you went away,
so many fingers pointed at me,
the sight of your blood haunts me,
it's becoming a nightmare,
my heart broke into pieces to see you there,
lying motionless, you didn't smile at me,
you looked so pale with less blood in your body,
your soul was gone and you looked empty,
i wonder if you would be okay in the next world,
i still think of you,
the smile on your face,
the laughter that sounds so funny,
i looked for you,
they told me you were gone,
you were never coming back,
i cried so many tears for you to come back,
i wanted to wake you up from your sleep,
they stopped me,
i feel so weak, so helpless,
where have all my strengths gone to?
i just wanted to tell you for the last time,
i miss you so much and it hurts so bad,
forgive me Nina, forgive me pleas

Anak

anak,
dimana engkau?
sudah tiada lagikah kasih sayang?
aku rindu untuk membelai,
rambut hitam lebat menjadi kebanggaan,
kerana aku ibu,
aku melahirkanmu,
menyusukanmu,
kerana engkau anak,
aku selalu mengenang,
engkau manja dan penuh ceria,
menjadi kegemaran kepada semua,
engkau bijak dan petah bercakap,
senyuman manis mengukir di bibir,
dimana kau sekarang anakku?
mengapa sepi tanpa berita?
aku sangat merindui,
tiada malam tiada siang,
aku mahu kau pulang,
kembalilah di sisi,
jangan biarkan aku terseksa,
hati hancur mendapat berita,
engkau pergi tanpa restu,
sanggup engkau anakku,
jiwa gelisah mengenangkan,
dimana silapnya?
kasih dan sayang kuberikan,
seperti air mengalir tiada hentinya,
bertungkus lumus membesarkanmu,
meminjam meminta jika tiada,
agar kau dapat sesuap nasi,
supaya tangisan kelaparan berhenti,
dikeji dihina, kerana selalu meminta,
aku terima, aku lakukan jua,
demi kau anakku, aku rela,
aku berdoa setiap hari,
agar ketemukan aku bersama kau,
semoga kita dapat kembalikan,
keriangan zaman silam,
berilah aku peluang itu,
sebelum aku pergi menghadapnya,
izinkan aku membelaimu,
kerana aku merinduimu,
dan kerana aku ibumu...

Bayangan Semalam

dalam kedinginan, aku kesepian,
senyuman di bibir menjadi santapan,
dalam siulan aku tenang merindui,
tinggal kenangan untuk diabadikan,
kita bertemu dan berpisah jua,
kembali aku ke zaman lalu,
mengenang ngenang peristiwa silam
dalam diam aku menangis,
terimbas kembali bayangan semalam,
berjalan perlahan di atas titi,
meniti hari yang tiada pasti,
hidup sepi mengenang diri,
siapalah aku insan kerdil,
hati dan perasaan dimain-mainkan,
mengapa sanggup dilakukan,
kita semua makhluk Tuhan,
engkau dan aku tiada bezanya,
terlerai sudah segala rahsia,
diri dikata pengemis cinta,
berkecai semua impian hati,
aku terima dengan reda,
menuju aku ke masa hadapan,
membawa sejarah dengan harapan.

Hari Itu Dalam Sejarah

hari itu dalam sejarah,
kelembutan suaramu,
satu azimat,
tidak dapat kunafikan,
hati ini sudah disentuh,
dalam diam aku merasa,
diam bukan bererti tidak mengerti,
aku manusia yang hina,
terumbang ambing,
di persada perjuangan,
seorang diri aku melangkah,
tidak pernah kenal erti bahagia,
suka duka aku seorang diri,
tidak pernah mencari erti kasih sayang,
terpinggir mencari erti kehidupan,
jatuh bangun aku sendiri,
aku pasrah lumrah kehidupan,
dimanakah ilhamku gelora jiwaku,
tiap wajah aku lalui di jalanan,
aku tidak berjumpa,
tiap doa aku panjatkan aku berserah,
batin ku sepi pilu mencari ketenangan,
dalam kedamaian aku semadi,
engkau hadir mengukir senyuman di bibir,
membawa seribu harapan,
di arena perjuangan,
jangan kami kecundang,
ditertawakan orang,
di medan percintaan dalam perjuangan,
hatiku sebak terasa,
senyuman dalam tangisan,
suka dalam duka,
suci dalam debu,
namun manusia tetap manusia,
hari itu dalam sejarah,
keikhlasan niat aku lafazkan,
dari ketulusan hati kasih sayang tersirat,
Sinar Fajar kian menjelma,
bersama kau di lubuk hati,
mungkinkah kau jua dalam kerinduan,
tidak akan ku padam lilin cinta kami,
terima kasih ku ucapkan,
atas kenangan manis itu,
akan ku abadikan sebagai memori,
semoga Tuhan merestuinya...