Missing You

Sadness filled my days
When you are gone
I hope for you to come back
And shine on me once again
Though so far, but I feel you
Rain showers me but not my sorrows
Missing you kills my soul painfully
I pray you are safe where you will be
In the arms of your loved soul
While I break missing you

I Remember You...

When the sun is gone and the moon lights up,
I stay up all night thinking of you...
As I stay up, I wonder if you would do the same for me...
I remember you in my mind as well as my heart...
For the goodness you brought into my life even if it's just temporary...
I cannot say how I have miss you because I know it's not right...
I am remembering you everyday for that is what my heart wants...

If Only

If only there were just you and me in our vocabulary,
I would take you to a faraway place that only we know,
We'd sing, dance and laugh till the sun replaces the moon,
No worries, no sadness, only happiness accompanying us,
I show you my world and let you into where my secrets revealed,
If only I could come into your world instead of having to peep,
If only you would have love me like how I have love you,
If only we could let love take control of our destiny,
I would probably not say if only anymore...

Malam Itu

Pada malam yang dingin aku mengingatimu
Terasa sepi dan pilu mengenangmu
Rindu yang aku tidak dapat mengucapkan
Terhadapmu seorang insan yang aku sayangi
Tiada bunga dan hadiah untukmu
Hanya luahan tulus aku coretkan
Adakah kau rasa apa yang aku rasa
Berdegup jantungku menatap namamu
Hatiku menari bila engkau muncul
Seperti berada di alam fantasi
Yang mungkin tidak dapat aku miliki
Aku terima walaupun pahit
Kerana itulah kebenarannya
Berjalan aku ditemani hujan
Yang turun membasahi kepasrahan hati
Tiada wajah dan rupa untuk tatapan
Namun aku percaya engkaulah dia
Cinta untukku yang bukan milikku
Malam itu aku sedari

Suka

Suka, perasaanku terhadap Kau
Yang telah membuka hatiku
Tiada sentuhan, tiada wajah
Namun aku tetap suka

Suka, itulah Kata jiwaku
Lembut caramu menyentuh hatiku
Hanya suara menjadi peneman
Namun aku tetap gembira

Suka, diriku Pada dirimu
Walaupun jauh aku terima
Tapi sayang sudah berpunya
Tiada harapan bagiku sudah

Suka, masih aku terasa
Bila hati tetap merindu
Jiwaku sebak menahan perit
Kegagalan untuk merasa cinta

Why Love?

Dear Love,
Why does my heart feel so lonely?
Why do I cry before I go to sleep?
Why did you come only to leave so soon?
Why don't you stay awhile and be my company?

Dear Love,
Why is it always painful to be with you?
Why did you come only to hurt me more?
Why did I let you in only to be dissapointed?
Why did I get so stupid when it comes to you?

Dear Love,
Why did you hurt again when I am already hurt?
Why can't you see my broken shattered heart?
Why can't you feel the pain you have caused?
Why are you so blind to what I feel?

Dear Love,
Why did I get so vulnerable?
Why did I get hurt so much?
Why did I cry so much for you?
Why did I even know you?

The Mountain

serene is what i feel when i am with you,
peace and calm envelope me,
i feel your strength inside me,
pushing anxieties out of my soul,
forever you are a friend without a face,
wealthy without having to drop a sweat,
tidy without fancy furnitures and exquisite chandeliers,
yet...you can mesmerise every single soul that conquer you,
you are truly...the Mountain

Hear My Whisper

Hanni,
my world is empty now
everything seems muted
i miss yesterday so much
when i wore a smile on my face
can we go back to yesterday?
when happiness filled the air
and my spirit was sky high

Hanni,
the sky reminds me of you
every wind that blows
carried your name with it
i whispered softly in the wind
hear me say, under the ray
let the wind blow to you
carrying my whispers

Hanni,
can you feel the wind
will you hear my whispers
do you feel my pain
shall we break the silence
understand my plights
acknowledge the truths
i whispered 'I love you'

Mistake

I just realised that I have made a stupid mistake
A mistake that has changed everything about us
How I wished I could turn back the time to make amends
Day and night, I keep thinking about you
I wonder what went wrong and now I know
It was my entire fault, how I hate myself now
I feel so helpless, like a rose left to dry
I had carelessly made bad decisions
If only I could show you how much I care
One chance that I had, and I threw it away
I allowed jealousy to take control
I became a victim of my own action
I used to wonder how it’s going to be without you
I need not wonder anymore because now I know
You are not with me any longer
I have lost the person that makes my soul lively
Would it be different if I had not made the mistake I have made
I have tried but I failed, it’s almost impossible
To forget someone whose soul is present in me
The bond that we have created virtually is stronger that I ever thought
I will live with regret now for I have made a mistake at your expense
You have always been the one that I have ever love so dearly…

Dearest Diana

Dearest Diana,
I never knew if it was love or just a curiosity,
You never fail to linger in my mind
I have not touched nor have heard you,
But the emotions of longing for you exists
A lover without a face,
You took my breath away suffocating me without mercy
Our weaknesses and faults have broken the promises we have made
We thought we were strong, but we were wrong
I could never forgive myself,
For it is an act of disgrace
I am no match for this fight I am fighting for
If there is anyone to be blamed,
For all the sadness in the air
It will be me, I will hold myself to blame,
I have sinned you
I have forgotten what I was fighting for
Condemned me and I will comprehend,
For all the tears you have shed
You have an enigmatic nature,
But I always know u will remain mysterious
Unless I am patient
But it has gone with the wind
Like the leaves falling from the trees,
Blown away by the wind without a destination
I have been in love with the wind,
I can feel it but I can never have it
It seems so close but yet so far,
so strong but yet so soft
In my quest to search for myself,
I have come to the road less travelled
In my isolation I have reached to a conclusion
I’ll only know when our eyes meet,
And I will feel the beat of my heart
If I die before I am awake,
Please believe I loved and love you still
All I ask for is your heartfelt forbearance
for the mistakes I have made
Your clemency is something I shall not seek
for I am too humiliated of myself
If I have upset you in any way,
I shall not defend myself for I am only human
I will submit my humble self to your demand
and your wish will be my command
I will not search for more but only your soul,
your touch and your divine devotion
And in exchange for that,
I shall give you mine
If you were mine…